In less than 2 hours I will say goodbye to one of the most enlightening & defining decades of my life, my 30s.  Three words that best describe this decade are rebirth, re-establishment and reconciliation. In this ten year span I have loved, experienced death of close loved ones, ended two marriages, been pregnant four times, overcome cancer, started a business, been homeless, wrote and published three books, been jobless, penniless, and hospitalized more than I’ve ever been in my entire life. I embraced my calling as a light worker, leader and minster of the gospel outside of tradition church.  This decade has gifted me the opportunity to face and overcome many of my deepest fears – fear of being abandoned, fear of rejection, fear of others opinions of me, fear of standing up for my life, fear of success, fear of failure, fear of being misunderstood, fear of not measuring up and fear of dying.   

Not only did I release over 100 pounds physically, I also released mental & emotional weight by letting go of the need to carry other people’s burdens, to control outcomes;  being a people pleaser and the need to explain myself.  I allowed Spirit to give me a new perspective about change and let go of the need to control other people’s life and respect their decision to live life on their own terms.  I was healed from being judgmental and delivered from little mindedness. Some friendships ended while others evolved.  I learned what the voice of God sounds like to me, how to be provided for and one of my greatest lessons learned was to trust God’s love for me.  Trust my intuition. Trust my creative inspiration.  Trust people are not out to hurt me.  Trust the vision God showed me for my life.  Trust that everything that has happened in my life happened for a divine reason.  Trust I am called, qualified and approved by God.  

I am grateful for letting go my negative mental and emotional beliefs about money and my right to it. I know what abundance is – I AM ABUNDANCE.  My thirties were a bitter sweet combination of disappointment & triumph, heartache & healing, sleepless nights & powerful prayer and tears & joy; instilling devout wisdom, sustained peace and tried & true faith in God. I am stronger, wiser, and know God to be a very present help.  I know God to be a healer, a comforter and a lamp unto my path.

It’s interesting, most of my dreams during this decade primarily dealt with water (floods, oceans, muddy ponds, waterfalls, rainfall, etc) which references our emotional healing.  A lot of inner healing took place during span; it was scary at times, yet, I made it.  I now know my worth.  I now know the value I add.  I now know that I matter to God.  I now know there is nothing too hard for God!  So, with a sincere heart I say good bye inner turmoil and the need to be confused, unsure and a victim.  Goodbye to the need to hide and dummy down to make others feel good about their self.  Goodbye to worrying about money and wondering if I will have what I need. 

I declare and decree that my latter days will be better than my former days.   I declare and decree that good shall come unto me.  I declare and decree the blessing of the LORD, maketh me rich, and God addeth no sorrow with it.  I decree and declare the windows of heaven will open up, and pour me out a blessing, that I will be expanded to receive.  I decree and declare that with God all things are possible, my dreams are possible, my hopes are possible, my goals are possible, and my prayers are possible!  I decree and declare my gifts make room for me, and bring me before great men.  I decree and declare no weapon that is formed against me shall prosper and every tongue that rise up against me in judgment God shall condemn.  I decree and declare God will go before me and make the crooked places straight.  Thank you God for a new day, a new year, and my new life!  Amen.  Ashe. And so it is. © 2016
 

Until next time, make it a great day,
Cynthia

Who are you?  Do you know?  Have you taken the time to find out?  About a year ago, I was going through some major transitions and though I had already overcome a lot in my life, I felt insecure about who I was and my ability to be who I was.  I was yearning, looking for someone, anyone to tell me who I was.  I looked to friends; I hung onto their every word after asking them to tell me the value I added to their life.  I sought answers from my children by making comments that would prompt their feedback and boy did they accommodate me.  Their reassuring remarks reminded me of the good mother I had been to them through the years.  Yet, even after reaching out to friends, prayer partners, family members, the preacher, prophets and anyone else who’d listen, I still felt unclear, uncertain and unhappy.

It wasn’t until I prayed to the Lord and asked to be reminded, reacquainted with the truth.  “Lord, tell me who I am.  I feel out of sorts and unsure of my potential, my abilities and my faith.  God how do you see me?”  Did you know God cares about the things concerning us; nothing is too petty to God. God took time to answer me and remind me who I was.  He brought back a dream I had a few years ago where he used a tiger to show me my character, my nature.  He reminded me of the time he told me I was resilient; I had quit a high paying job to pursue my life’s vision and was scared as hell! Then He instructed me to sit down and make a list of “I AM” statements; it was a heavenly download!  Here is the list, I wrote this over a year ago.

I have noticed in my life, and maybe it’s true for you too, whenever I am facing major change/adjustments I tend to get a bit nervous.  What I have also realized, a truth that helps me, is this, “It’s all the same”.  Problems, situations, changes, and challenges they all require the same process which is to get information and take action.  Maybe you’ll understand it this way, simply find out what needs to be done then do it. But that’s not the focus of this blog. 

There’s this quote by Aristotle that says,” Knowing yourself is the beginning of knowledge.” I love the truth in this quote.  When you know who you are, you are not easily convinced of who you are not.  Learn who you are.  Embrace who you are so you can have the courage to BE who you are! 

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Until next time, make it a great day!
Coach Cynthia